A Bit About Miss Beth....

Miss Beth has many of you know, is several years younger then me. But She grew up similiar to me in many respects. She is from an middle/upper class family and is the youngest of four (two older brothers and a Sister). My wife had a very happy childhood. Her parents were very loving and She got along with Her sibilings. She was also excelled at almost anything She did at a young age. Academically, athletics, making friends, etc Miss Beth just was "great at it all" as Her older sister likes to point out. She was your typical Princess as well, as She often showered with a lot of gifts and affection from family as well as friends. But something was different about Her (just like me), even at a young age. Miss Beth will explain:

"I learned at a very young age that I was very powerful. I could not only get boys to do what I wanted them to do but have them thank me for it. I am sure they had a crush on me but I've now come to realize that it was deeper then that. Even at a young age, I could be cruel and humiliating when I had to be. I got into several school yard fights with boys and more then held my own. I don't know if it was growing up with two older brothers or what. When I got into middle school and junior high, I practiced with the boys wrestling team and pinned them quite regularly. The head coach was absolutely desperate to get me on the team but the school district had a policy of "no girls" on a boys team so I couldn't participate. I was angry about it and I used it as motivation to excel in other things".

And that is just what happened. Miss Beth excelled throughout junior high and high school. She was a varsity athlete by the time She reached Her Sophomore year of high school, competing in three different sports: Cheerleading, Gymnastics and Track. My Wife wound up helping Her school win two state championships both in cheerleading and gymnastics and top it off, She was an all-area track star. Obviously, my Wife was very popular in high school. Not only did She demand the attention of many boys who drool all over themselves for Her affection but also many girls who wished to be like Miss Beth. She handled it though by all accounts with grace and ease. She dated a few boys throughout the years but never too serious. My Wife also excelled at academics posting a 3.8 GPA, scored a 32 on Her ACT's and being an National Honors student. Miss Beth seemed to be your All-American Girl from the outside. But just like me, my Wife had secrets that She hide from others and/or wasn't aware fully of. For that I will let Her explain:




Judo. "I began taking Judo lessons when I was eleven years old. A neighbor of ours was an judo master. He and his wife would hold weekly lessons in their basement. I began attending and soon brought Di came along. We would hardly ever miss a lesson and wound up taking them for almost four years. We moved up a few belt classes and eventually joined a regular judo gym once we turned 16 and could drive ourselves. I reached the level of black belt a few years ago and now teach a few basic courses in judo at the gym I work at. I have also competed in some tournments and done very well and of course, sparring against boys/men.

Bodybuilding. "Throughout my life, I been a very athletic person. Yet I did not begin to workout with weights routinely until my sophomore year of high school. I was recovering from an injury sustained in a gymnastics competition therefore had to rehab it. I began lifting weights while the varisty football team did and I suprised them on how well I kept up. I went on a four a day week routine lifting weights for the rest of the year and summer. I came back to school with newly added muscle and confidence (if that were possible LOL!). It continued throughout my junior year and during my senior, I decided to make bodybuilding part of my life permanently. I decided to major in kinesiology (Miss Beth also has a double major in business) with the hopes of being a professional trainer and bodybuilder. I have competed in many amatuer bodybuilding competitions throughout the years and will continue to so through next year. Bodybuilding is a huge part of my life and regardless of my competing future, it will forever be."

Competing against boys. "My competition against boys when I was in high school only grew stronger. It seemed like so many boys wanted to test their "manhood" against me since I was such an accomplished athlete. Most of them were just looking for reasons to get a "cheap feel" therefore I ignore them. Quite frankly I was a different class athlete then they were and not worth my time. Yet, there were a few that really wanted to test my mantle that were worth the challenge. Therefore I accepted some in all kinds of forms. Arm wrestling in the cafeteria, leg wrestling at parties, wrestling/sparring in the wrestling room, strength and endurance competitions, etc. I did quite well at these challenges as I quite often defeated the little boy competitor. And not only did I love the challenge of competing against boys, but I absolutely loved how it made me feel. I loved seeing their defeated faces and shaking their heads in shame. It felt right, natural. Looking back on it now, I was doing something I was born to do.....only did not realize it at the time."

Using men. "The first time I ever used a man was during the summer before my senior year of high school. I was working as a camp counselor for a gymnastics camp. The person who managed the gymnastics portion of the gym was this creepy guy by the name of Eric. He would flirt with all the young girls even though most of us weren't 18 yet, let alone in college. Some of the girls were flattered by the attention he gave to us since he was supposed to be a "cute former Olympic hopeful". I thought he was a burnout who failed miserably and now was this 25-year old stuck working as a gym manager. So I never really paid attention to his passes at me even though as the summer went on, his passes only grew stronger. Eventually, I decided to throw it back in his face. One day, he was desperately trying to get me to "do something with him" as the two of us were in the large supply closest getting materials. I decided to have some fun with him. I told him that there was one thing I would be willing to do with him. "Give me 50 bucks," I said "and I will let you watch me shower naked. But you cannot touch me one bit". He shook his head in total astonishment and ask me to repeat. So I said it again....only this time slower and louder, "50 bucks Eric and I will let you watch me shower naked". Somewhere between his drool and exictment, I heard a yes. I told him to get the money first and show me. Then I will give instructions on when and where. It took the poor bastard about a week but eventually he did show me the money. I told him to bring it late Friday night to the women's shower room. It would be empty by then since the gym was closing and I would have just finished my workout therefore, I would need to shower anyway. I set up a chair for him and suprisely, he showed up on time with the money. I came out wearing a towel and instructed him to put the money on the ledge so I could see it. Eric did as he was told so I dropped my towel and began to run the water.

As Matt and others can attest too, I can be very narcissist therefore I was not the least embarrased being in front of a grown man naked. I had also had "shaved" the previous night for the event which I made sure Eric noticed. He was totally engrossed with me. Even more then he imagined I'd take it. I took my time showering, making sure I teased him to death. Halfway through, I noticed his cock buldging from his shorts. So I decided I wanted a bit more money....and further humiliate him in the process. "50 bucks more and I will let you jackoff in front of me." He didn't need me to say it twice this time. He immediately reach into his wallet and flash me another 50 dollars. I pointed to the ledge where the other 50 was and he put it down. He tried to sit down but I told him he had to jackoff on his knees or I'd would stop the water immediately and go dry off. Eric didn't fight me at all on it and went to his knees. He pulled out his package which to my suprise, was nicer then I imagined. I had expected him to have a small little winnie but his dick was relatively speaking competent. Eric really got into it which I had to laugh at. Moaning and groaning as he stroke his cock, his eyes eventually closed as he got close to his organism. I watched intentally has Eric blew his wad. I finished my shower, grabbed my towel, tied it around myself and walk over to him. I told him to not move a muscle. His shorts were at his ankles and he just gizzed all over the shower floor in front of him. I stood above him and before he could speak, I pushed him down on the floor, making his clothes wipe the cum off the floor. I then slam my foot into his back and barked at him saying that if he ever told a soul, I would fucking kick his ass in front of everyone. He agreed and begged for me to take my foot off of him which I was kniving into him. I waited a few moments as I basked in my glory before walking out. We wound up doing that twice more before the summer was up. Three showers for three hundred dollars. And the only time he ever touch me was when he shook my hand thanking me for being a great "summer worker" the Friday before school began. Looking back, it was a great introduction on how my Goddess statue could work to get me stuff. I was young and naive so I could gotten more from him for perhaps less. But I was learning fast. And again, I was loving it. Watching him jagoff and cum while on his knees on the floor like a monkey honestly turned me on. Not him so much but rather, the power I had over him."

Sugar Daddies: "The Eric experience was a springboard to begin using sugar daddies. I had a few my senior year. I had remain friends with an older cheerleaders, Rebecca so she introduce myself and Di (My Wife brings Di in on everything always!) to some "gentlemen". They were successful middle aged men who just wanted a young little thing around to adore and drool over. They bought me and Di clothes, gift cards, cash, showed us around town where we went to elegant dinners, parties, plays, etc. In return, we just paid attention to whatever they wanted to talk about (which was often their unfilling personal life) and showed us off to their friends. I would hold their hands and cuddle with them if I thought it was warranted. And on one occassion, I did make with an younger handsome gentleman who was in town on business but that because I really wanted too. And it never went past that. I never gave them the Eric shower treatment though I could have made a fortune off of it! We only saw these gentleman callers a few times a month. On top of everything else I had going on, I did have a boyfriend who knew nothing of it but more importantly, I wanted to enjoy my senior year. Again, it was a good training ground on how to get men to bend to your will. The power that I felt after being adored and giving nothing in return was addicting. Plus the gifts and cash looked lovely stacked and stashed in my back closet which my parents never checked. (Beth smiled broadly at the memory of that).

Exploring Women. "As I got older, I realized I was attracted to women just like I was to men. I began exploring these feelings with the person I trusted the most, Diana. We often cuddle when we were in junior high whenever we had a sleepover and around 8th grade, we began to makeout for "practice". But in high school, we began to go further then that. We began exploring our bodies and realized we enjoy each other's company on a physical level that neither of one of us expected. We began to have sex on a regular basis by the time we were 17.We were bold too as we often hop into a bathroom stall at school after one of athletic practices and while crashing a frat party during a college visit, we lock ourselves in the bedroom of this idiot who hit on Di all night and didn't come out until the next morning.....completely spent after pushing each other's bodies. There were a few other girls that I wanted to explore my sexual nature with, mostly on the gymnastics team but Di and I decided that be best to wait until we were in college and knew what ladies were bi-curious. And we also agreed, that we wouldn't tell any men about how bi-sexual natural until we were in a "truly committed relationship".

Miss Beth would go on and graduate from high school with honors. She then next went to a very prestigious college where, my Wife once again excelled. Miss Beth was a great college athlete competing both in cheerleading and gymnsatics. She also joined a sorority, the school newspaper as a freelancing photographer and yet still managed to post a near perfect GPA. She roomed with Di all four years and dated a few guys, most notably a pre-med student by the name of Bobby, who She dated for a few years and had a very serious relationship with. Her family life continued to be strong as She stayed close with Her parents and siblings even though they were starting their own adult lives by getting married/starting families. She continued with both Her bodybuilding and judo careers, competing in both sports and doing well. My Wife meant even more friends (and more admirers) during this time, again giving everyone around Her the feeling of the perfect "American Co-Ed". Yet again, there something going on behind the scenes that others were not aware of:



Professional Dominatrix. "Before I became a professional dominatrix, I was behaving like a lifestyle dominatrix. I had a couple boys on a string that I used for chores and other necessities. Di and I always had the cleanest apartment, cars, clothes, homework slaves, etc. They also showered us with gifts. In return, I let them worship my feet, my boots and if they were very good, they could worship my body a bit. But mostly, they did it to be in my Goddess presence. About halfway through college, I was introduced to a professional dominatrix by the name of Lady Stephanie. Over the course of a few weeks, we meant over coffee and she recruited me to join her dungeon. I was hestiant at first and for me, that is very unexpected since I am not a hestiant person. I had no doubt that I could do the job. And the money she said I could make for such small work sounded very appealing. Stephanie also insured my privacy by saying I would not be used in any advertisement or marketing of the dungeon. My client list would be strictly be built on a referral basis where I had the ultimate right to see or decline a possible submissive. But would I'd enjoy it? That was my main concern. I had enjoyed my time using Eric's pathetic nature against him, beating up boys who challenge me and of course, our little apartment slaves were great but to get this involved and sexual with a submissive man? I had my doubts. Still, I decided to press on so between our meetings, I read up on the subject of S&M. It intrigue me more then I expected so Stephanie set up for me to watch a session. I had watch a lot of S&M porn during this time but nothing prepared me to walk into the studio room and take a seat (along with several others). They dimmed the lights so the submissive slave could not make out our faces. The session began and within a mere moments, I was hooked. I was very turn on to be explicit, very turn on. I absolutely loved the power exchange, the control the woman had over her man and how he responded to the pain she administer to him. After the session, I waited around to speak with Stephanie. I told her I was in. She said she could not be happier and would be personally seeing over my training. (Similiar to Miss Jessica, Miss Beth's training last an entire summer. She had the benefit of though of being two years older and having of course, Miss Diana join Her on the journey as well).  By the time my junior year rolled around, I was ready. Stephanie set me up with one of her oldest clients. I followed my training exactly, going over all ground rules, interest, limits and expectations before we meet via emails and asking for a deposit. We had a two hour session and by the time it was over with, he was puddy in my hands. I also was drunk with power and though I didn't know it at the time, I had found my true inner Goddess though I would not truly follow until a dramastic incident a few years later. (More on this in a later post) I became one of the most popular dominatrixes at the dungeon and was always getting showered with gifts, flowers, money, letters of admoration and devotion and this was outside of my session fees. I meant some great friends, most notably the other women at the dungeon and I began to explore the S&M underground".



Diana and I on a side note became of even more value to the studio since we were able to train the other dominatrixes in wrestling skills that was becoming all the rage (and still is) throughout the S&M world therefore the other dominatrixes could offer wrestling/fighting as part of their requests. There was nothing better then beating a man down and then dominating them culiminating ass. I also could be a vicious tease and denier but I am sure you can figure that out by now". (Again, Miss Beth has a wicked smile on Her face).



More Exploring Women (and Diana more): "My bi-sexual tendancies did not grow once they got to college, they only grew stronger. Both Di and I branch out and explore our bodies with  other women including a couple of the ladies at the studio dungeon and the S&M underground. We really had some unforgettable nights. Exploring my sexuality with women became a vital part of my life at this time and it is something that will always be."

"Diana and I also grew closer, if that were possible. We roomed not only room all four years together but also when we were on the road together for athetlic competitions, pledged the same sorority and even vacationed together. Close to our senior year, we spent a lot of time talking about having a romantic relationship and begin dating. We both gave it a lot of thought but ultimately decided against it. I really don't know why we never tried it, we were such a perfect match! Perhaps it was a combination of both of us knowing deep down we wanted to be with a man in the end and the fact we never wanted to ruin our friendship. She will always be my best friend forever,  my other soul mate and if I were to ever be in a committed relationship with a woman, Diana is the only one for me".

College grew to a close for Miss Beth and in many ways She was on top of the world. My Wife graduated with honors and had Her choice of jobs leaving school. She took a personal trainer's position at a prestiaged gym which no considence, Miss Diana was working at part-time to help pay for Her upcoming grad school. And as fate would have it, a single architectual consultant who was secretly a submissive to Women was a member and workout there regularly! LOL! My Wife truly had it all, even a secret professional Dominatrix career that was helping to create in my opinion, the perfect loving Mistress Wife.  Everything was perfect for Miss Beth, except the gentleman She was dating.

"I had broken up with Bobby not too long after senior year started. We had a great relationship at first but over time, we just grew apart. He was a great guy and I was sad when we stopped seeing each other. I can say that he is the only man outside of my husband that I truly loved. I took a few months off being single before I was introduced to Alex. He was several years older then me. Alex was good looking, smart, successful and could be charming. He also took his time courting me which I appreciated due to my pretty recent breakup with Bobby. On paper, he was a man any woman would want. It seemed like the perfect time to find someone like him since I was just finishing school."




"Yet from the very set, I could tell something was wrong. I don't know what it was but I could tell he wasn't for me. I could not be open with him and more importantly, our relationship was extremely vanilla. Even more vanilla then my previous ones which as I explored the S&M world more, was something I did not enjoy. Alex would even try to be  a bit domineering towards me which I would not put up with. And yet, I pressed on with a relationship with him for months. Looking back on it, it was one of the biggest mistakes of my life except how it ended which became a life altering moment. As Di always told me, "You weren't yourself with Alex and it shined through". He honestly began to annoy me after awhile but for one of the few times in my life, I'd acted like a stupid little girl. I'd stayed with him hoping it change. It never did obviously. Things did started to change though drastically though I started my new job out of college. Not with Alex but rather the moment I meet my future husband and soul mate.


Meeting Matt (Me, LOL) for the first time: "Wow, that was a moment I will never forget it! My first impression of him was that he was devilishly handsome, beautiful really. I should point out that I did not go up to everyone and shake their hand like Matt suggested in an earlier post. Did I introduce myself to members and talk with them a bit? Yes but I did not flirt with them or even shake their hand. Only Matt's. And shaking his hand was honestly magical. I felt a tingle up my body that I had not felt in a long long time. And I was dating someone at the time. I remember as we talked, I checked out his body which I found to be in a word yummy. He had strong muscles and each bodypart was well defined. Matt was confident but did not show it in a cocky matter. He wore a t-shirt with sleeves and shorts that were the correct size. I absolutely hate guys who were shorts that look like they are trying to smuggle bananas! (LOL!) Plus, they matched which showed me that he put effort into himself even at the gym. I remember looking into his beautiful eyes as we talked and his delicious mouth that had a goregous smile. I also noticed that unlike the other 99% of the men at the gym, he wasn't checking out my body but rather looking into my eyes as we talked. And he was listening intentially to what I had to say. I'd liked that a lot. It showed me that he was a respectful man. I could stood there for a lot longer and talked with him (Ditto for me obviously as I have mentioned) and was quite pissed off with Diana when she came up and broke it up even though she was just letting me know my next appointment was ready. I tried blocking Matt out of my mind after that and concentrate on the rest of my day. It was difficult though. And while having lunch in the trainer's office, my mind drifted. I will never forget what Diana said to me when she came in." (Note they both have told me exactly how this conversasion went):

Miss Diana: "Boy, was that Matt guy was something. You two would make a good couple".
Miss Beth: "More like you and him. I already have a boyfriend Di, you know that".
Miss Diana: "Who is putting your feet asleep. Don't deny it."
Miss Beth: "We are just taking our time to get to know each other. I am very happy with Alex".
Miss Diana:"*Laughs* Riiigghhhttt. Okay, we can pretend that to be true. Just like I can pretend that you haven't been staring at that duck tape roll this entire time and thinking of Matt".

"I looked up and realize I had been busted. There was a roll of duck tape on my desk and for the entire time I had been there eating, even before Diana came in; I had been daydreaming about Matt and what I wanted to do with him. Everything from gagging his mouth over with it to tying him up by both the hands and feet so he could endure some pain and pleasure by me. But most of all, I wanted to make him all mine by completely humping the crap out of him. And the craziest thing about it all? I'd hadn't once fantasized let alone tried anything like that with Alex. Yet, here I was. I found myself very arroused by the prospect. Extremely as a matter of fact; perhaps more then anytime in my life. I'd honestly had no answer for Di because what she said was true. I'd looked up at her and started giggling while blushing a bit (And I can tell you, Miss Beth hardly ever blushes!).


"She left and I sat there trying not to think about it anymore. But I found it hard not too. It felt so natural, so right. But I was being stubborn and not a good way. I still wanted to play it out with Alex. Like I said previously, the relationship with Alex was one of the biggest mistakes my life, maybe the biggest. But the resolution and outcome of that relationship was life changing and without it, I doubt Matt and I would ever started dating. Certainly not in the way we currently now which is absolutely perfect. So I was left pondering what was my reality was (Alex) and what I deep down really wanted (an D&S relationship one with Matt). It was a dark time of my life and honestly, would get much darker in a matter of only a few short weeks. Fortunately what they say is true. Total darkness can only bring the light. And my light was coming, brighter and better then I could ever imagine. I just needed to hit it into action".